About Me

Who Am I?

I'm probably someone just like you if you stumbled on this. A person who wants to live life to the fullest but has unseen issues "holding them back". Someone to relate to. Finally.

I'm a 21 year old male currently living on the east coast of the United States of America. I am 6 feet tall, I'm averagely athletic, and I'm probably just as, if not more awkward than you are. I love music, friends, traveling (at times), staying inside all day (at times), feeling good and being happy. I'll take a wild guess and say most people at my age like these things too and can relate to this extremely broad statement. One less common thing that's completely hit or miss is that I have a girlfriend that I love very much. Life isn't always perfect for her and I, but we get by.

But one thing sets me apart from the stereotypical 21 year old guy living in the US. I recently got diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. It would be an understatement to say it changed my life. It's completely wrecked havoc on it and nothing seems stable anymore. But that's okay, because it gets better.

For those of you who don't know what Bipolar disorder is, I'll give a quick run down:

Bipolar disorder is defined by google as "a mental disorder marked by alternating periods of elation and depression". But this doesn't truly explain what bipolar disorder is. For starters (and I'll keep this quick), elation is a weak term. Manic is the proper and more intense word to use. Extreme elation isn't happiness as most would think. It's anger, agitation, frustration, anxiety, and a most of all, a confusing experience to have. Depression, as most of you know, is the feeling of nothingness, or in simple terms, a deep sadness. Depression is probably too lightly used these days but for the sake of time I'll leave it at that.

So that's what my life long sentence is. A constant alternating, and sometimes mixed existence that slowly but surely gets worse without treatment. Luckily for me I have treatment though, as many people like me should. It takes time to find, time to test and time to work. But once it does work, you'll be thankful you reached out.

Why Did I Start This Blog?

I started this blog to help those who feel alone in this fight and for those who want to know more.

If you've ever felt the struggle of bipolar disorder within yourself or from a family member, then you'll know how rough it is to deal with this disorder by yourself. With this blog I aim to make you feel like you have help. You have someone who's dealing with this too and your life isn't as crazy as you think. Everyone has their tough times and you are surely not alone.

For those of you who want to know more, this blog will also help you. Whether you want personal accounts of someone with bipolar disorder for research, recommended readings for learning about the disorder, or overall advice/ facts about different mental disorders, then you happened to stumble upon the right place. I will attempt to write this blog in such away to assist everyone who needs it in their current and future lives.

Thank you for visiting my blog and thank you for reading my story. It has been and always will be a pleasure writing to you.